Well…..s’been a while, eh?
So the sciatica thing sucked real hard, and it’s still not entirely over. Parts of my foot and ankle are still surface-numb, I still haven’t got full strength and balance back in my leg, and if I overdo it, I certainly know about it. I’ve been trying to be very mindful of what’s happening in my body, without being fearful… so that I don’t push myself too hard, or wimp out too early.
As detailed in the previous post, the downhill path started in July, and honestly, it wasn’t until about mid November that I started to feel like I had some control again. It was a long, frustrating time, and I found myself stripped of my greatest tool for handling angsty feelings: running. I hadn’t even realized until I wasn’t able to, that I had been using my runs as a way to blow off steam/frustration/fight-or-flight/anxiety/etc. Not being able to do it also sucked real hard.
But, I’m running again, which is great. Not long, and not fast, but enough that I get the good-feels that I want to get out of it, and I feel like I’m making progress. Still haven’t cracked 5km, which is disappointing, as I was up to 10km a year ago – but I’ll get there.
I feel like I have a bit of a road ahead now, not just to continue rehabilitating my hip, but also my internal equilibrium, as all of this has created a prolonged feeling of being lowdown and sluggish. I need to jumpstart my engine!
Admittedly, I’ve been starting slow and being careful, but it’s time to start re-training myself. Been going out for more runs, stretching, setting time aside to sit quietly, eating less junk, drinking less booze, making myself get up at a decent time despite being off work, no mid-day naps, taking vitamins, drinking lots of water, and all that good stuff. Once my habits are back on track, I will look at weight training again.
And, it does suck a bit to run in the winter, but I think I can hack it. By springtime, I hope to be up to 10k again, and might sign myself up for the Sun Run or something.