This section of my site is (for the moment anyway), intended to be a personal tool for tracking and motivating myself on a personal goal.
As a person who believes in the body-positive movement, and does not at all believe that a woman should be measured by appearance, I struggle a bit with my own desire to look like an Amazon. I already feel like a warrior on the inside, and I have shockingly hard muscles under my curves. But I want the outside to match the inside, and to stop feeling like an Amazon in fat suit. I want to be ripped.
I decided months ago that I wanted to do this, but it’s been difficult. One of the most unexpectedly difficult things has been a fear of judgment about my wanting. Months have gone by, and I haven’t acted on my desire to be incredibly fit and strong because I was afraid that desire might be misinterpreted as a self-esteem issue, or as a message that bodies that are not fit and strong are inadequate, or that I was somehow letting down the body-positive movement.
And, this morning as I was pinning images of hard-bodied women to my secret Pinterest board, I realized that I was hiding what I wanted to do to my body, (which has been seriously impeding my progress) because I was afraid of judgment. I don’t believe my fat is shameful, but somehow, my desire to get ripped IS? That’s kinda messed up, right?
After that little epiphany, I decided do whatever I needed to do, to get myself on the path to the body that I want, and that I wasn’t going to hide anymore. So I made my secret board public, and I went out for a run with Frank, to the Farmer’s Market, and bought fresh produce for a delicious lunch.
My intention is to do a daily post in this “get ripped” category, and track my physical activity, intake, progress, etc. The first goals are small: just stretching & running for the next two weeks, drink more water, eat more greens.
So there. Now you know.